Completely Random

yeah it was... but next time I'm gonna drink something else

I feel like crap noone wants to party with me

Awwww I would party with you, dude!!! I'm having a solo party - I always have more fun that way. I control the music, the food, the alcohol, and I can stop whenever I want and just crash.

i know!! but today Santa comes to us, it's hard to believe but we celebrate Santa on december 6th. and here at my campus we have a party where you wear santa's hat or devil horns ecetera. and i really wanna go there!! Like really, but noone wanna comes with me!! i'm really feel like crap! I'm f@cking hate that!!

Dude, what are you doing on HQ when there's a mega party going on you wanna go to? GO! If you wanna go, don't let the fact your friends don't wanna go stop you. Go on your own and you can meet people and make new friends!

I'm to scared just to start talking with people i don't know And i don't wanna go alone I'm just too shy

My advice would be to go, down like half a dozen tequila shots, and the buzz from that will enable you to get over the shyness and talk to people. You might even see a few people who you kinda recognise from just around campus.

Maybe i should really do that!! or i just go to bed and sleep
I'm really in a bad mood now! That's why I want o go there to forget problems!
I just about to cry4

Awwwww sweetie *cuddles* Those are pretty much your only options. Go to sleep and hopefully you'll be over it tomorrow, or go and try and have a good time. Depends on how much energy you have and whether you're still in the mood or not.

My problem doesn't solve itself i have a problem with one of my roommates whom i lived with last year too and she changed a lot! And she just don't talk one of my other roommate and i talk to her and I think the one i have problem with just don"t wanna talk to me bacause i talk to the on she don't like anymore! And i feel like crap!
Plus when they want something that must have to happen! And when i want something i just a crap. like if i want to be alone and listen to music or watch a movie, when I had emo moment, I just not good enaugh for them or if i want to study I'm the crap again. And if i wanna party noone comes with me coz they are not in the mood!
And when I'm don't wanna study I'm the crap again!

And if i don't wanna wacht the stupid reallity show on tv i'm the crap again!
I allways be the CRAP!!!

I think I need new friends!! And i just don't like that! I loved them i do it too now! But i think they just don't feel the same! And I think I don't need friends like this. I tink friends are with you in good and bad too, But these just want to use me. And that is sad! Really sad!

Sorry for this, but i just needed to write it down. I hope you understand me if not that's not a problem.

Awwwww, Edi, darling, that sounds horrible!! *cuddles* I had a similar situation in my first year of uni, and again here in Durham over the past few months. Sometimes it happens. AT uni, I just stopped speaking to those friends, and made new ones, and those friends are my best friends now, and I lost contact with the guys who just used me.

Here, the girls I thought I was friends with just want me come around when they're bored, but when they can get 'better' company, they just completely ignore me. So I'm moving on. I'm gonna join some societies, get to know the people in my lab more, and just generally find some friends who deserve me.

It's tough to go through, but you'll get through and you'll be stronger for it. Of course it's a problem - anything that makes you feel upset or horrible about yourself is a problem! But it'll be ok. People survive a lot worse in their lives, so we'll get through this too.

I know! My mum keeps repeating this. And I'm working on getting new friends but it's really hard, but I won't give up easily!! I swear!
But it's hard to live someone who just ignores me again, it happened last year, but we were a team against the other 2 who were just complete jerks!
But now i feel like I don't belong here anymore

Sweetie, it's just change. It happens to us all. Doesn't mean you don't belong, it's just that as you change and become a new you, you won't belong in exactly the same place. So you might not belong with that group of people, but you'll belong with a new group.

I really really hope so!!

I know so!

I'm sooooooo cold I can barely type cos I can't feel my fingers

Ohhh, hoon are you alright now?

Getting warmer but it's still freezing. I had to do the washing up yesterday to warm my fingers up!!

I supposed to wrote 2 test today but one was canceled and the other gonna be on next thuesday..

Oooh yay I love cancelled tests!!

me too, but it's freaking annoying when you have a lot of test and you not study for them because you have tests earlier!

Yeah I can understand that.

It's almost CHRISTMASSSSSS!!!

Oh, and I need to pee...

YES YES YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEESSSSSSSSSSSSS!!
And almost at home

My nose feels funny...

like how funny?