Completely Random

I'm hoping I can keep my curiosity at bay...

Hahahaha well i am thinking everyone will read it, then you will all know one portion of the things i would do to take away Taylor's innocence! hehehehe!

ew ew ew ew ew EW!

OME! EWWWWW!!! i need to go take my mind of the horrible pictures that just popped into my head!

can I come with you, cousin??

What horrible pics? I mean, im sure to me they would be good pics anyway! Surely they arent that horrible...What were they?

yes cousin! lets go to new york! see if we can spot rob lol!

ewwwwwww tenten you made them come back! stop it! ewwwwww!!

Yes cousin we should do that!

Im sure they arent that bad Mary! LOL! If they are anything like mine then they would be sooooo good, and so want to make you make time for youself....LOL! Unless im the only person who does that! LOL!

*pretends i didnt just read that*

awwwww poor cousin!!!

Ok fine i will stop...

Ok i will be random...I totally freaked Troy out last night, we were watching Twilight, and i seen the first Jacob apperance and then fell asleep, but i somehow woke up just when they got to the beach and Angela was zipping Jessica's wet suit up...So i still got to see Jacob, didnt miss him once, then i was awake for most of the movie and fell asleep again, but woke up when Bella was in hospital and i got see Jacob right at the end...It freaked Troy out that i somehow managed to wake up to see Jacob! LOL! I consider myself lucky...

And hey, i wont be falling asleep at all when i watch New Moon on DVD when it gets to that point...LOL! I mean, even if i was totally tired i wouldnt sleep cuz its got to have alot of Jacob! LOL!

hahaha that is kinda freaky. like your body is so engrained now he remembers exactly when Jake comes in. Wow....you're like a mega awesome circus freak

Hahaha yeah, Troy was freaked as well, i didnt realise why he was looking at me like that at the end of the movie...LOL...and then when we turned the TV off and stuff and were just laying there he said it, and i didnt even realise! LOL! but he was right! I just think i got lucky! LOL! Or someone was watching over me and helped me wake up to see Jacob! LOL!

It totally freaked him out the other day when we were driving to the DR's as well, and we NEVER have the radio on, but we did this time, cuz Troy was just happy he finally managed to get me in the car to go to the DR's...LOL...and the radio was real quite and i heard Taylor talking so i turned it right up...Troy was like - 'Dude, i didnt even hear the radio you freak, and you can spot his voice like that'...LOL...Well duh, when you have been obsessed with someone as long as i have with Taylor it makes sense! LOL!

wow when your obsessiveness has the ability to shock Troy of all people, you know its extreme!

Yeah but like i told Troy, any of you girls would be able to spot Rob's voice from a mile away as well! LOL!

actually you do have a valid point there

Hahaha yep, i sure do!

Well i got Troy's costume, he is going to my party as Chucky, we put the orange wig on him and he looked so cute, so he had to wear it to my party tomorrow...LOL...We brought overall's and the stripped top as well when we were out, now he just needs sneakers....

awwww I wanna see pics of Troy as Chucky!!

And my random point is why the holy hale am I still up at 4am even though I've been all alone on HQ and mostly alone on FB/MSN??

It's 6:20am and this is the second night of me not sleeping. Finally my brain and eyes are telling me they want sleep now. I am having some drink and heading to the bed.

Btw, this is great thread. I am having the same at my forum. It's one of the popular threads.

One more random thought. After writing something in FB I understood I feel close to what Bella felt in New Moon. Maybe I need to reread it. I wanna torture myself now till it bleeds. Till there is nothing to cry out anymore. Maybe then the pain will stop. I just wanna sleep and when waking up not remember anything. From the other side I want to remember cause there was so much good, so much happy moments.

I am really sorry about my mood. It will continue for days or maybe weeks. I am too much too deep into it. I am sorry, I just need to cry and scream my pain out of myself.

Great now I made myself to cry again. Can't go to sleep.

When my dad died, it was soooo different. I didn't cry that much, didn't cry for days. Cause he was laying in the bed paralyzed for 3 months and knew he suffered so I knew when he died it was the best for him, he didn't suffer anymore, it was easier to accept that. And I know my dad is still with me. After my dad died, Michael replaced him. I always looked up at him since I was 12. Now I can't accept it cause it happened so suddenly! A day ago he was rehearsing, dancing and he told his friends he was truly happy. And then suddenly and he's gone and never will be back! Just matter of few hours!

Other fans said they can;t listen Michael. But I am listening him all the time now. Maybe I torture myself with that but I need it.

I am sorry.

lazzy dont apologize! we're here for you. you can rant in here all you want. im really sorry and i hope you feel better soon. but dont ever apologize for feeling what you feel. take your time. we'll be here when youre ready to post again.

do you want me to move this to the advice forum? so non-members cant read?

No I don't mind anyone reading it. I feel like whole world is on the same level. No one is bashing Michael anymore. I had to deal with bashing for 16 years. It's sad to think it takes somebody's death to realize what do they are missing.

VH1e and MTV will hold Michael Jackson's weekend in this weekend. All radios and media are talking about him. No one is calling him child molestator, freak or self proclaimed King Of Pop. I don't mind if they would call him like that only if he would be alive again!

still hoping youre feeling better lazzy. <3. <---that heart looks cooler on facebook... just saying.

anyways. im eating cheetos for dinner. and drinking cherry coke! im such a jerk! my brothers dad left me $15 to order a pizza or get subway, and instead i take his car and go to the gas station and get a big back of hot cheetos and two bottles of cherry coke! just thought id share rofl.

so this thread is for Chit chatting? or just random other stuff?